Too Skinny?

I know its a while away yet but we are coming up to spring and summer (well a few months away yet, but a girl can dream) which means lovely pretty dresses, shorts, cute tops, legs out and Bikinis! I do love this time of year, but it does some come with a little bit of added pressure to have a nice body, not everyone will agree, and its great if its not something you think about, but for me it is. Don't get me wrong I don't worry about it, I do like my body, but there are some things I would like to change before the summer. 

Before writing more, I really want to make sure that you know that I do not think that having a nice body is SOOO important, its really not! The most important thing is to be happy, because the happiest girls are the prettiest, and as long as you love your body that is all that matters. I have seen plenty of good looking people, who once you get to know, have zero personality and it just changes my view completely, no longer as attractive as first thought. 

My Problem is I need to put a little bit of weight on, but I have a really high metabolism, so its difficult to say the least! Most people that I speak to about this say its a nice problem to have, which to a point i can see. However it does annoy me how people think that being skinny, not slim.. SKINNY is really lucky. For me, its not, I want curves, boobs and to look less bony! When for some its just as hard to put weight on as it is for some people to lose it, I can't see how being Skinny is lucky and being overweight is Unlucky, there isn't really a difference. 

Anyway, I don't want this to get too deep, the bottom line is everyone is BEAUTIFUL in there own way, being different is what makes life interesting. I just think that for me looking nice gives me a bit more confidence, which is a good feeling. 

So what am I going to do about this?

Well, I have found some pictures that have given me a boost of inspiration, and I am going to eat healthy, but more calorific foods and just try and put on about a stone i think. Basically, lose the prominent hip bones and collarbones, and get a bit more boob! (If i can). 

I'm sure its not just me who has this issue, please let me know if your in a similar situation or have any tips? x 

P.s I know all of the women in the pictures below are Slim, but I think they look nice and healthy. 

Monday Monday

I haven't written anything in a few days, I have some interesting ideas for my next post, but for now I just thought I would come on here to say.. I know its Monday, but if you are back at work and feeling a bit down that the weekend is over, be positive :) I hope you have a lovely week! I don't know if its the same for you but the weeks seem to fly by at the moment, this made me think instead of always waiting for the weekend to come, I am going to do lots of things in the week that fit around work that I enjoy.

It is also very important to everyday have a little bit of 'me' time, for me this can be shutting my bedroom door, playing some music and painting my nails, or just a bit of pampering. I find it really does make me feel better and sometimes if I am having a tough day at work I will look forward to doing this when I get home. I know it's not always easy to do everyday, but my aim is to MAKE TIME.

Always have things to look forward to in life.... Oh and Smile :)

Anyway enough rambling, I will be back very soon with another post x

Valentines

Its Valentines day tomorrow, so I thought I would make some goodies. Rather than going out and buying a present I prefer to make gifts myself. What are your thoughts on Valentines?

  

 

 Lemon Biscuits
You will need...

• 
  
• 175 g plain flour
• 1 finely lemon, grated zest only
• 110 g soft butter
• 50 g sugar

- Pre heat your oven to 180c (Fan oven)
- Mix all the ingredient in a bowl so that it forms a dough, if your mixture is remaining a bit crumbly then add a splash of milk, this will really bind it together :). 
- Roll out the dough to about half a cm thick and cut out any shapes you like
- Cook in the oven for 8 - 10 minutes
- Finally melt some chocolate and leave to cool for a while so its not very hot, then drizzle over cooled biscuits. 

And hopefully you have a yummy treat! 

Another treat that I made were mini meringues, I used this recipe.. http://www.deliciousmagazine.co.uk/recipes/mini-meringues-with-cream-and-fresh-fruit 

YUM YUM YUM! 

Everyday Make Up

Before putting on my make up, I find that its really important to moisturise, it makes it much easier to apply foundation evenly.
These are the products I use and the order I use them in.

1. Clarins Daily Energiser Cream.
2. No7 Instant Radiance Concealer
3. Loreal Lumi Magique Foundation (18)
4. Bourjois Delice de poudre - Bronzer
5. Rimmel Match Perfection Blusher
6. Benefit Passport to posh pallet, using the dark brown eye shadow to line the tops of my lashes
7. No7 Extreme Length Mascara
8. Bobbi Brown Basics Lip Palette - Rum Raisin

And that's my everyday look :)

Anxiety..

Before I start this post, I just want to make it clear that I know this is a bit of a miserable topic and i'm not writing it hoping that people will feel sorry for me, no way! I am writing it because up until recently I didn't realise there are so many people who suffer and I want to share my experiences with you, in hope that it might help you in some way if you too suffer with some kind of anxiety. 

As you can imagine this is quite a personal thing to write about so i'm a little worried that it may give you the wrong impression of me, If you were to meet me you would not know that I have these problems going on, I am normal :). Whatever normal is....

The other day I was watching a you tube video by Zoella, talking about anxiety and I couldn't believe all the comments and the response,  it made me realise that actually there are probably quite a few people with there own problems but like me keep it to themselves (apart from in this blog obviously haha).

With me the problem is I have a Phobia of being sick, I am not going to go into too much detail but basically it makes me hugely fussy with food, I sometimes get worried about going out in busy places such as clubs ect, public transport, I dont drink alcohol ect and a fair few other things. It may sound really stupid to some people, and trust me I think its silly too, but you sometimes cant help what goes on in your mind. 

I have lived with it since I was about 10 I think, but its been the worst the last few years. Last year I got so down about it and kind of depressed i suppose, that my family said I needed to get this sorted, and i agreed! So I went to the doctors and she referred me to see an NHS Psychologist, where I had 4 sessions of CBT, however I was discharged really quickly and it didn't help me much. So time went on and i though it was just something i would have to live with and 'get over'. However I have now started seeing a lady about it and its really helping, she really understands everything and delves right in to find out things about me that i never even thought about! She has given me ways of coping when i have a panic attack or when i start to worry unnecessarily. 

I have now realised that avoiding all situations that are potentially going to make me face my fear 

are not going to help in the long run, although it is really hard to put this into practice. For example I very rarely fully enjoy myself when going out for an evening, especially in winter because there are lots of bugs that go round and all i feel i need to be aware of this, so it kind of distracts me and stops me having a really nice time. Also where there are drunk people there may be sick :( which is always at the back of my mind. I am making myself sound like a right weirdo but this is all in my head, i do not show it, to everyone else i appear fine, just maybe a bit quiet if i'm really worried about something. 

So recently I am trying to just do things that I wouldn't normally feel comfortable doing, and it does help because once you have done it you feel really good, much happier than hearing all your friends talking about it and secretly wishing you had gone. 

My advice to anyone that suffers with this problem or anything similar would be to write it down, keep a notepad and pen with you at all times, and whenever you feel worried write all your thoughts down. This will then help you to get the thoughts out of your mind. Another thing that helps me is if im really panicking, is to suck a sweet for some reason it helps and gives you a nice taste in your mouth, so i always keep some in my bag just in case. And finally reading is really good, especially before bed, as its taking your mind somewhere else :). 

If you are reading this as a sufferer then please remember it will get better, you just need to find the right method of help for you, even just someone you can talk to can really help you to feel better, but if you just try to do things you would normally avoid its a start!

I hope you don't think i'm completely crazy, and this is the last miserable blog post i promise :) and on a brighter note, its valentines day in two days. ♥♥♥

20 Facts About Me

1. I love the sun, it changes my mood completely to a happy one.

2. I am a little bit addicted to shopping.

3. I am a worrier, i cant help it! 

4.  I have played the guitar for 11 years.

5. I Love Animals A LOT

6. I have a gorgeous cat, my only pet, she's such a princess.

7. The Rolling Stones are my Favourite Band.

8. If I had to live off one food forever it would be sweet potato.

9. I hope to become a veterinary nurse.

10. I have a gorgeous Boyfriend

11. I like to sell my clothes on EBay, so I can refresh and buy new ones. 

12. I love cooking, especially baking! 

13. I would love lips like Rosie Huntington Whiteley.

14. I always wake up early, even if I would like a lay in.

15. I hate baked beans, with a passion!

16. I hate winter, it makes me miserable.

17. I am listening to John Mayer whilst writing this post.

18. I suffer with Anxiety (unfortunately) 

19. I have never been to America.

20. I Miss My friends at Uni SO Much!

Well I hope you enjoyed, that was harder than I thought to think of facts about myself! 

♥

January Favourites

Here I am going to show you my Favourite items that I purchased in January, this doesn't include cosmetics, just clothing :). 

Topshop Dress - £25.00 in the sale

I love this dress, I don't own that many going out dresses as I tend to wear Skinny Jeans and a nice Jacket or something similar, but this year I aim to get my legs out more! So I thought this would be a nice dress to add to/start my collection. 

Topshop Jumper - £20.00 in the sale

I have to admit i probably don't NEED this jumper as I am a bit of a jumper freak and have quite a few, however I really liked it and as its not really getting any warmer outside I thought, why not! 

River Island Studded Boots - £45.00 in the sale

I love love love these! I had been looking for some boots for ages and could never really find the right ones, or the ones I liked were way to expensive, so when I tried these on I was so pleased! They are very comfy and look pretty cool with most outfits I think, these have to be my Favourite clothing purchase so far this year. 

Zara Basic Bag - £22.99

I got this bag because its a nice shape, and simple yet smart looking. I am terrible with keeping my bag organised, so i need one that is easily kept tidy and I can see everything in it. This bag also has a longer strap which is good when you have your hands full. 

xx